Children... I love them. Especially when they are mine. The way my daughter smelled the first time I held her to present day two and a half years later makes my heart swell. Her smile changes my mood instantly. She is so full of life and joy that I cannot keep from joining her in this celebration of living. Motherhood is what I was created for. This role that is so exhausting and exhilarating at the same time makes my heart happy. So, naturally, I want more than just one.
I have wanted to be a mother since my baby sister entered the world. I was two and a half. I would tell my Mom stories of how I was going to grow up, have a husband and then have my very own baby. Whenever I was asked, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" my response was always, "A Mom." I never really thought about a career in any other line of work.
Well, I stuck to my plan. I got married and we had a baby after two years of marriage. Both of us, coming from large-ish families (I'm from a family of six and my husband is from a family of five), have always wanted a minimum of three kids. When it came time for us to start trying for baby #2 (keeping our children two years apart was our goal), we were excited. What couple isn't excited about the prospect of holding their own flesh and blood?
It's been fourteen months since we started. This was not part of the plan. At all. I am not one who easily slides into depression, but I have gotten to the place where the pain constricts my heart so deeply that I let myself wallow in the darkness for a little while. Mourning is okay. So long as I get back up. Which is required thanks to my darling girl who needs her Mama.
I have had some hormone testing done and everything came back normal. We are now going through more testing. My husband is getting a semen analysis and I have to undergo a sonogram to make sure my uterus and fallopian tubes are working and shaped correctly. If these tests come back normal my Doctor said she'll send us to a fertility specialist to seek further treatment.
It was after my last appointment that spurred me on to research fertility treatments. I am drawn to doing things naturally as possible. I grew up with a health-nut for a Mother, so I know quite a bit about that whole world. Long before it gained the momentum it has in the last decade, we ate and lived naturally. With this predisposition I web-searched natural methods for increasing fertility. I came across the Natural Fertility Prescription and purchased it after reading her website. After reading through her research and talking with my husband, we have decided this is the best route for us.
While we eat healthy as it is, big changes are still required of us. Quite a few foods we indulge will be cut from our diet. The way we live, clean, eat and exercise will be transformed. I'm excited and nervous. Change is not always easy, but this is for the best. Investing in our health is the best investment we can make.
So, the journey continues. And I plan to write often as we walk forward. I hope this will be a place for encouragement, support, and helpful information on the quest to finding fertility naturally.
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